It's Never Easy to Say Goodbye

Today I write with a very heavy heart, for today we lost a dear family friend. Someone who I knew my entire life and so glad that I had her in my life was taken all too soon. While we weren't related, we were still family, so much so that she was considered an aunt and her husband an uncle. Growing up and spending weekends at their house were so much fun. She was the life of the party, could make anyone laugh, had the biggest heart and would bend over backwards to help no matter how much she had going on.

When I heard the news, I broke down in tears...trying to tell Chris what was wrong as he held me. My thoughts immediately went to my uncle and 'cousins'. Angela and I are the same age and I can't even begin to imagine what she's going through. I feel helpless when I want to make it all better. It's not fair...I don't understand why Aunt Kathy had to be taken from us so soon. I understand that God has a plan for all of us, but there are times when I truly don't understand His plans. I know that she is no longer in pain and is in a better place, but this still hurts like hell. So many of us were blessed to have known her and had her as a part of our lives...she touched so many and I only wish more people could've experienced her joy.

I know that we'll all lean on each other and get through this, but today...today is just a very sad day. Heaven has a new angel, RIP Aunt Kathy and God bless the family and friends to be strong and continue living on through your memory.

Oh My Buns!

Wow! What a weekend! Kicked off Friday afternoon/night celebrating an amazing couple. The wedding could not have been more them or more fun. Chris and I both agree that it was the best wedding we have been too. Of course there was lots of alcohol consumption and bad eating, but I will not allow myself to have any regrets. That's one thing that I'm 'starting' to learn, the past is the past and you need to let go. Tomorrow is another day and move forward with making better decisions. Now, did I make good decisions the rest of the weekend...no, and that I will beat myself up about...but only a little. The problem is, that I can do really well during the week, but then screw it up on the weekend. Willpower just seems to go out the window. This is something that I need to change, because I know that if I don't I also won't get the results I want either. If you want it, you need to work for it.

Week 3 and time to turn it around. There's a couple new workouts in the rotation now, tonight's newbie was Buns. Wow...just wow. You want an amazing lower body workout, you need to try this. I will be sore tomorrow, but I'm not complaining.

Tonight's entry is short, but I'm still recovering from the weekend and am exhausted. Time to prep tomorrow's lunch, shower and bed.

It's Going Down Today

So glad that it's Friday and even better, I don't have to work today! I love weekends and the rare weekday day off because I get to start my day off with my workout. I'm not a morning person, so getting up before 5 AM to workout before work does not work for me, but getting up at 8 or 9 to workout on the weekend...completely doable. 

This week was definitely more stressful than most, but I made it through getting 3 out of 4 workouts in and eating clean 95%...had a couple slips. 

But today is going to be an amazing day! You see, today one of my closest friends is getting married and we are going to celebrate until the cows come home...or until everyone passes out, whichever comes first. Will this throw off some of the hard work that I put in this week? Yes, but I also know that I won't go as overboard as I used to. I've formed some good habits and have learned my limits. I know it's okay to indulge a little from time to time. All about moderation. 

Have an amazing Friday! Believe in yourself and you can do anything! 

Perspective

Between yesterday and today, one theme seemed to ring in my head...perspective. Yesterday I woke up on Day 8, beginning of Week 2 to check on my progress and found that I had gained weight from last week. What, how the hell is that possible? I did the workouts, I ate fairly well, what gives? I started to think about it and instead of the old me saying 'Forget this, this program doesn't work' and give up, I thought about where I might have gone wrong and what I can improve. Yes, I did get all 6 of my workouts in...ok. Did I really do as well with eating...ehhh, no. Remember date night Friday? The glass of wine, oh and the cappuccino and chocolate lava cake for dessert...hmmm, yes that could be. And brunch on Sunday wasn't oatmeal and fruit. Those 3 mimosas and chocolate waffle for dessert didn't help. Now we're getting somewhere...see, perspective. Not to mention that at the beginning of a new habit, workout program the body goes into a bit of shock and it is normal to gain weight at first until the body calms down. Plus I'm retaining a bit of water (yeah, water...keep drinking it no matter how many trips to the bathroom you have to take!).

So, what have I changed this week? For starters, I joined a 5-day clean eating challenge...SCORE, accountability to keep the food in check. I'm on the second day and already feel the difference. I just need to get back into my rhythm, and I'll be set. Just need to stay focused and keep my eye on the prize. As long as I stay consistent, I know I will see results...it just takes time (and let's face it, patience was never my strong suit...but I'm learning).

Today on my way home from work was torrential rain, windshield wipers can't keep up type of downpour. As we're slugging along, I watch a tree fall onto the road...and oh by the way, this happened 2 cars in front of me! It was like watching a movie in slow motion with how this all transpired. The tree fell and miraculously no one was injured! There were no fender benders, we all kind of stopped for a second and went around. The tree did come down on a couple of cars, but luckily everyone was okay. The heavier, thicker part of the trunk missed both cars. I truly believe there were quite a few guardian angels working hard to keep everyone on that interstate safe tonight. After I caught my breath and talked to the State Police dispatch notifying them of a tree blocking 2 lanes, I thought about how much this puts certain things into perspective. The things like stress with work or traffic or something stupid like feeling guilty for wanting to be lazy for a night/day are not the important things in life. Because at the end of the day, what's truly important are loved ones, being happy and healthy, how you lived your life and how your life impacted others. XOXO

Weekend Wrap-Up

I made it through Week 1 and am still excited about working through this program. So many times I have started and stopped and started and stopped for one reason or other (got out of the groove, no motivation, no accountability, etc). Not this time though, going to keep moving through and finish strong!

So what makes this time different? This time I'm doing it for me and not trying to impress other people. In addition, I've found an amazing support system, which makes a world of difference! When you have other like-minded individuals pushing, supporting, motivating and trying to achieve similar goals it makes you not want to give up.

What all went on this weekend? Friday was a rest day and after a long week, a dinner out with my love at one of our favorite Italian restaurants was just what was needed. Yes, I had a glass of wine and dessert, but that's okay not anything to beat myself up about. What I've learned over the past few months is that it's okay to indulge every now and again...as long as I come back to center.

Saturday and Sunday's workouts were a second round of Define Lower and Upper Body. I'm getting better, but still have a way's to go. The fun part of my workouts are my furry obstacle Jasmine, she loves walking under me trying to throw me off balance or make me laugh. The photo below shows her walking under me in Downward Dog.

The best part of Sunday's workout was that Chris joined me for the first time. It's so much more fun working out with someone else and even more amazing when it's your significant other. :-)

So looking forward to Week 2 and becoming more flexible and getting my leg higher and form better with some of the movements, like the Warrior 1 and Warrior 3 poses noted below.

Day 4: Sweat Did Not Disappoint

Sooo...what did Chalene have in store for the Day 4 workout? A little hint...the title of today's workout was Sweat. And that's exactly what I did! Wow, talk about your heart pounding, muscles shaking, strength building, work for it workouts! Within the first few minutes, the sweat started and just kept pouring on throughout the remainder of the workout. Every time we sat back into Child's Pose, I was saying 'Thank You'. I had no idea a low impact workout would kick my butt as much as it does! I just love how I don't have to beat my body up and still get an amazing workout.

So let's talk water, shall we? We all know we're supposed to drink a minimum of 6-8 glasses of water a day or half of your body weight in ounces. So going with the body weight I should be drinking 88 oz of water (176/2 = 88). And today I realized that I am not drinking nearly enough water...I know I wasn't hitting my mark, but didn't realize how negligent I've been. What was my great revelation? On my way home from work today I noticed that my fingers were pruney. Normally not something to worry about after swimming or taking a shower...however in the car, not so much. Fingers, hands, feet or toes being pruney when you haven't been in the water means you are dehydrated. Wake up call and I'm definitely making a more conscious effort in my water consumption.

Just What I Needed Today

First, ugh...FAIL! No post on Day 2...ran out of time with going to the baseball game last night (which got rained out). Karma...hmmm. But that's no excuse, my commitment is not to just get my workout in everyday, eat clean 80%-90% of the time, AND post. This is a No Excuses zone after all. Okay, no regrets, no looking back and moving on. :-)

3 workouts in and I couldn't be happier with this program! My day was crazy as usual, but had a bit of a curveball when I found out that a couple of my team members were leaving. After figuring out a semi-game plan with my manager, I couldn't wait to get home and pop my DVD in. As soon as I started, it felt like the weight of the world was lifted off of my shoulders, instant mood changer. I just started following along and soon all I could think about was 'how long are we holding this' and 'oh hello core, how you doing today?' Not to mention the comedy of errors going on with the fact that my feet started sliding on my yoga mat because they started to sweat! Lol...anyone worried that you won't get that calorie burn because it's LOW impact...let me tell you that you don't have to worry about that!

I may be clumsy, not have all the moves nailed down yet, and may need to do more modifications then I would like...but that's okay! I'm getting it done one day at a time!

Day 1 - Align: The Fundamentals

Since I had an extra day off, I was able to do my workout a little earlier than normal today. Today's workout was Align: The Fundamentals where Chalene takes her time explaining and showing the fundamental moves we'll be consistently doing throughout the workouts. It's a 45 minute workout...but absolutely worth it! How many times have you started a new program and not had a clue how to do the moves, let alone know what the correct form is and be expected to just "jump right in" and follow along? She has both a modifier and someone showing the advanced version of the moves. :) 

I know I'll be modifying more in the first couple of weeks, until I get more comfortable, stronger, and more flexible! Let's talk flexibility for a second, shall we? I'm generally not big on doing yoga, but I do stretch and know that my flexibility is no longer what it used to be. However...I realized just how inflexible I've become over the years! That dancer flexibility I had as a kid and teenager...long gone. But that's OK, because I know that by following this program, my flexibility will improve!

Last thought of the day, think Low Impact means you're not going to burn a lot of calories? Think again...this wasn't even a traditional workout and in 45 minutes I not only broke a sweat, but also burned almost 200 calories! 

Day 0 - Starting Point

Tomorrow begins the start of something new, which I'm extremely excited about, as I will embark on a 60 day journey to a better and stronger me with Chalene Johnson's PiYo. This program promises to be a new fun challenge and transform my body in a way I never thought possible. And all LOW impact, which is perfect since I seem to have somehow managed to injure my knee. To help me stay accountable and motivated in addition to my challenge group, I'll post daily here so you can keep tabs on me and my progress. I'll interject some humor from time to time, photos, and updated stats....I hope to keep you entertained and inspired. :)

Some of today's preparation included taking my initial measurements and determining my daily calorie target....which is surprisingly 1670 calories/day! I just hope I can eat that much!

Starting points:
Weight: 176 lbs
Chest: 35.5"
Waist: 34.5"
Hips: 44"
Legs: Left - 24" Right - 24.5"
Arms: Left - 12" Right - 12"

Here are a few Before photos....looking forward to the 30 and 60 day results!